Heartbreak can weigh heavily on your mind. It can brood in your thoughts and dreams. I can remember a time when I would constantly wake up from a dream where my love was still here. My room would be dark and silent. The wee small hours of the night were the hardest to get through. Each morning I would have to accept reality again. My new roommate, heartache, would greet me unsubtly.
This idea of coming to terms with reality is something that I think about lately. I am not broken hearted anymore (thats long gone), but the feeling of loss is persistently on my mind. We have all lost a way of living due to the pandemic we are in. Covid may have broke our ties to our relationship with our ‘normal day to day’ life. Not only Covid but also the injustices that have been coming to the forefront lately. The normal days are out now. They left us all alone. We have to wake up with graphs that show our country’s infection increase and our deaths. We eat breakfast and then make sure we have a clean mask to wear for the day (which btw, I’m am totally for wearing masks. Please wear one for yourself and for others). I am not complaining about the measures taken to stop the spread of Covid-19, but rather I am thinking about how we lost a way of life that we had. We need a new normal. One with justice and better healthcare planning and action.
I wake up sometimes with a feeling of loss. Our old normal -as bad as it honestly was, was comfortable and I planned on living in it for a while. I can’t lie and say that I don’t miss it; I really do.
Just like any change we have to live now and sooner or later accept that we are in a new time. A changing time where life is more uncertain than it was before.
Billie Holiday, A remarkable Black woman in Jazz history, whose voice can move us even today in 2020. This song was written by Ervin Draket, Dan Fisher and Irene Higginbotham. Dianna Ross also covers this song, but for some reason Holiday’s voice resonates better with me.
This picture and the following pictures to come, were taken at an amiable mountain house in Valley Cruises, NC. My hosts and friends, Emily and Connor, let me enjoy their place for an evening and a great sunrise. The view from their deck is beautiful. I used my 8mm rokinon fisheye lens to capture as much as I could in this sunrise. The time I took it was about 6:30am and it was worth waking up for. The lens does vignette the shot a little, but I like it. As much as I tried to correct the shot’s curvature, I couldn’t without distorting the image too much. The Fish eye lens is great though! I got it used and at a good price.
Honorable mention song is Or Darn that dream – Miles Davis with Kenny Hagood.
Damn this song hits!!
El canto de mis fotos 